Hair Update: August 21, 2024

I apologize for the lame pictures, I got a different phone and the selfie camera just straight sucks!

I was using a Samsung S21 Ultra before and the pictures were way better quality. You cannot see the level of detail that you used to. But yet again, if the camera can't pick it up what I am trying to show then the results probably aren't worth showing.

 My routine has been unchanged, the most stable being my Minoxidil/Finasteride mix that I use once daily. I adjusted my dosage of the hair vitamin from the previous update to 2 pills a day instead of the recommended 3. I noticed I was simply pissing it away, literally. Also it just made me feel funky, like you know the feeling when you took too much of something and it just feels off? That is how I feel every time I take it, so I lowered my dose to see what happens. Plus the dermaroller routine that I try to do regularly, but it has been hit and miss. Sometimes I will remember to do it, sometimes I won't. Occasionally I will massage that band of muscle around my head, it feels good in a release of tension kind of way. Whether it helps grow your hair back remains to be seen though.

You cannot see from the pictures because it makes my forehead look huge, but my hairline is moving back down. Previously, I had this strange patch of like 5 or 6 hairs that grew on it's own little island, even as my hairline receded that little patch kept going. Now my baby hairs have reached that patch and are growing beyond it. There was an inch or more of bald skin between my hairline and that lonely hair island.

The main problem now is, I don't know if those baby hairs are going to thicken up or stay like that forever. It won't matter if my hairline changes but no one can see it because the hairs are so small.

I am happy with the progress I've made, I am very slowly reversing what was lost. But progress is SLOW, sometimes frustratingly slow.

 

I finally got a better shot of my hair.

 

This is when you can definitely see the hairline starting to change. I am hopeful, but I don't want to jump the gun and declare it a victory just yet. Looking back at my younger self, I see the hair loss was also very gradual. So I assume the recovery will be just as slow if not even slower.

But man, by the same I looked at myself and knew I was officially balding, it was already too close to the point of no return.

One Sad Lesson I learned After Reaching 30

After 30 years of life on our beautiful planet, you learn some things.

Being cool doesn't matter.

Fitting in doesn't matter.

What people think of you also doesn't matter... for the most part.

But the biggest thing I have come to realize, that all those movies and books said wasn't true, is that life truly is NOT fair. The bad guy will win, and the good guy will lose. And you eventually will sit there pondering in amazement, 

 "That person is a piece of poo, surely karma will punish them! Why isn't karma getting them?"

And you might be right, it could happen quickly or decades down the line. Even better, they might live a long happy life... while you live a short angry one. You die a miserable and bitter person, while the bad guy lives a successfully rich life.

That is just the way our planet works, someone who did nothing wrong could suffer unimaginable pain. You could simply be born into a poor throw of the dice and never enjoy certain things, no matter how hard you work. Here is another thing, you could spend your whole life trying to be the best, morally pure person you could be; but will never be rewarded for it. It is something you just naturally expect, right? If you live a good life then good things should come. But that isn't the world we live in sadly, it might come or it might not... your odds are random. Maybe a lot of people are realizing this and have simply given up on trying. Given up on trying to look good, given up on building a future, given up on helping those around them, simply given up on themselves.

Here is the positive despite the giant balloon of negativity, it doesn't matter whether the world blesses you. It is your choice how you want to live and die, kind of like a video game where it keeps track of everything you do. It doesn't matter either way, but you can finish the game with a record you are proud of or just not care and have the metrics be all over the place. It is 100% your choice and I feel that life is the same way, you won't get any awards for never, ever, ever, ever stealing; but you will feel good knowing you never did. 

 

 

Ultimately, you can choose how your life is directed. Something I've come to realize is that you can choose your destiny, even if destiny doesn't choose you.